Random rant pt.1

Inactive blog. No idea what to post. The whole blog is very depressing. On a happier note, the expensive $5k  meds seem to be working. My kidney is 'stable' and not fluctuating up and down. It's good. Yeah good. If it was good I don't have to go through this.

Back to rant. I care too much than I should. It's consuming me, it's all I can think about. This sucks big time. I needa stop this and back out when I still can or maybe it's already too late, I'm in too deep. Fuck this. Sigh. What can I do? What...?